Nachan93 - Feel The Love

CIWIDEY syalala~

2009-11-07T02:30:00.000-08:00

ide jalan udah muncul sejak lama.
setelah UTS brakhir pun (fiuh,fisika udah lewat euy! hha) akhirnya gw ma ank2 ngerapatin bwt acara jalannya.
ciwidey. itu tujuannnya.
motor. itu rencana awal kendaraannya.
TAPI.. resikonya, bung!
=='
akhirnya para cwe (termasuk gw) mutusin bwt nyarter angkot, n kalo ternyata angkotnya mahal (otomatis g pake angkot) maka cwe pun g jd ikut.
cwo pun bereaksi "yahhh g asik.." :P
alhasil ada cwo yg usaha nyari angkot n dpt dgn harga 400rb bagi 12 org. jatuhnya kira2 33rb-an per org..
bsknya dijadwalin kumpul jam 6.30 am n berangkat 7.00 am.
TAPI (lagi2 tapi..-_-')..
gw sendiri ngaret beberapa menit soalnya baru selese makan (kl cpt2 nti sakit perut ==)
trus udah gitu mesti nunggu anak2 yg telat n baru konfirm.
SO, jadinya pagi itu kita berangkat jam 7.30 am.
(^ org indo suka ngaret,jd wajar..hha)

akhirnya para punggawa angkot pun naik.
ganang: duduk di depan.
di baris sejajar pintu (dari dkt-menjauhi pintu): tio, bayu, mayang, citra.
di baris sebrang pintu (dari dkt-menjauhi): fajar, r. wulan, tari, wamy, endri, n nana (gw).
kesengsaraan dimulai dari jeleknya jalan yg dilewatin -__-'
trus sampe di perumahan margahayu kita berenti buat njemput dila :)
si neng yg 1 ini dateng bawa sekantong gede cemilan :D YAY!! hha

udah mulai mendekati lokasi, anginnya tambah dingin aja!! O_O
si endri yg abis kluar dr angkot dgn jaket bahan jeansnya, ngebuat gw serasa duduk di sebelah kulkas O_O
ih wao sangat cocok dgn imagenya "mr. cool-kas 6 pintu" ---> credit to wulan r. aka mama.
sesampenya di pintu masuk (tempat beli karcis..yeah u know wat im gonna talkin bout hha), dompet pun keluar xD
tiketnya 12rb per orang..
trus kami 'naik naik ke puncak gunung, tinggi tinggi sekaleeeee...'
resiko yg kentara bgt: telinga jd rada budek hha (solusi: pake trik tutup hidung -_-)
setelah kluar dari parkiran...
WUUUSSSSHH O_O gila sumpah masyaAllah astaghfirullah!!
anginnya cuuuuy duingiiiiin bangeeeeet :(
gw pun nyari pinjeman jaket, n si bowo yg "baik hati" (huekkkk :P) meminjamkan jaketnya..
meskipun warnanya "trabas blep" bgt ma baju gw alias kontras abis O_O tapi gpp deh yg penting rada mendingan xD
akhirnya kami pun naik..n turun..n sampe di KAWAH PUTIH yg subhanallah AMAZING :D
bau belerang sih, tapi SUBHANALLAH keindahan alam emang g ada duanya..:)
tapi anginnya bikin bete ==
udah dingin, mberantakin rambut pula D:

selanjutnya..
acara foto2 :D
yg njepret akang deni rustandi..HAHA
hasilnya ih wao baguuuuus xD
SK-33-02 emang narsis n kompak abis wakakak~

trus semua pada mencar bergaya n foto2 sendiri2..
gw n mbak citra menemukan tempat yg viewnya subhanallah keren :D
jadi ada batu gede,di belakangnya ada beberapa pohon yg tumbuh :)
kami b2 duduk di batu itu, trus manggil deni buat motoin..hha xD
n subhanallah lagi, hasil jepretannya AMAZING :D !!!

truuuus perjalanan pun lanjut ke danau (apa gitu lupa namanya susah ==)
masuk ke wilayah danau sebentar, trus LAPER O_O
abis makan siang, kita ke danau..
pas anak2 lg keliling, gw ma dila (n bbrp anak lain) duduk di tempat duduk yg disediakan..wkwk
gw muter lagunya Guardian-Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter..
sambil crita2 sama dila dgn suara gw yang oh well..bs dibilang KERAS :P
tp gw bt bgt sama org yg nyinggung hal itu :|
(^ g usah dibahas siapa)
abis itu kita foto2.. (agenda rutin n wajib haha)

next destination is kebun teh..:D
setelah nyungsep2 di jalan yg sempit n nyaris nyaingin tinggi badan gw, akhirnya semua anak2 pada fot2 n direkam di handycam nya derry :D
tapi tanpa deni.. gtw knp dy g mau turun :(
gw ma ank2 ngebuat gelombang aneh gitu (susah jelasinnya)
ya pkoknya having fun dah! wkwkwk

akhirnya perjalanan pulang pun dimulai.
MACET OMG NOOOOo!!
gara2 ada perbaikan jembatan, alhasil kena macet..
nyampe kawasan ITT skitar jam 6.30 pm..
langsung ke MSU ama mbak citra n dila, trus nyari makan :D

beberapa menit setelah nyampe di kamar, papa gw nelpon n bilang kl udah deket asrama gw..
gw turun ke lobby n berkangen ria sama paap tercinta :D
trus ngobrol sama mama lewat telpon :)
senengnya, papa gw bawa donat J.CO n brownies Prima Rasa :D <3
hhhiw~ i love u full hha~

the end :P
nih gw kasih foto fav gw (dr yg gw punya..sebenernya dr keseluruhan,bkn yg ini ==)

T____T

2009-08-18T14:56:00.000-07:00

So im living in a dorm nao..so many rules D: but i got 2 cool roommates :D

oh,u know wat,66% of all the students here r BOYS o.o
i shud keep my eyes or else ima fall for them xP jk jk xD

okay now im bored D:

I MISS U GUYS :(

2009-08-14T15:04:00.000-07:00

Raysa..
Xyhae..
Patrice..
CJ..
Ira..
Wangdda..
Jame..
Lee..
Leo..
Yan..
Tikkaaa..
ADRI..
PHENG<3..

HIATUS

2009-07-26T00:26:00.000-07:00

well not really..
but im not gonna on much..D:
gonna miss u all..:(
<333
BUBYEE~

im gonna move on..:)

2009-07-24T22:58:00.000-07:00

hahaha judulnya aja deh yg inggris..:P
jadiiii..kan critanya diriku lagi fall in love..tapi uhmm,,bykan sakitnya..hahaha
diriku memutuskan untuk mencari yg lain *ceileee~*
ya sebenernya masih suka sih,,tapi umm,,skrg pas udah tau semuanya,,rasanya gak kan kuat untuk bertahan ampe akhir..:)
sekuat apapun kucoba tuk mendapatkannya, dirinya seolah menjauh bagaikan pasir dihembus angin.. D:
lagian ada yang suka sama dia n dia juga suka..xD
jadiiiii..:D yaaaa gitu dehhh..:P
aduhh,,mana tadi pagi,mantan ku bilang "i love u..im still thinkin bout u everyday.."
jiahhhh D:
gimana ini???O_O
dia nun jauh di amrik!D:
masa sih mau balikan???O_O
aduhhhhhhh..><
dia manis sih,,baik,,n sayang bgt sama aku..><
tapi..lebih muda 1 taun..D:
gahhh,,apa gpp yah??O_O
ahhh gak deh..><
cwo gitu mah immature bgt..:(
moga aja dalam waktu dkt bs ktm ma cwo yg lebih tua DIKIT aja n baik..:D <3333
NANA FIGHTING!!:D

LEO~ :D

2009-07-23T20:10:00.000-07:00

his name is LEOOOOO~ LOLOLOL~
he's an awesomeee guyyy..xD
he made a fansign for me:
v

he made up a weird story for me..xD
and..and..he promised me gonna make a video of him singing n play his guitar..xD <3
yay me!!LOL~
anyway,,here's his video that i took from youtube..xD

LEO ROCKS!!!xDD puhahahahha~

I miss him a lot..:’(

2009-07-22T20:45:00.000-07:00

Last nite I finally got to c him in stickam n oovoo..:D but WTF! After around 20 min in oovoo,, it was balckk out here..O_O n I was like “o crap!” :( then I used my mobile to on MSN n asked my bestie to tell him get on MSN.. then he signed in there, I talked to him for like 5 min then I ran out of battery n he signed off..D: I guess he was sooooo sleepy n then fell asleep..:|
Oh well,, after that I tried so hard to sleep but I cant til it was around 2.30 am..
I closed my eyes n I think I finally sleep.. then my mom came to my room.. it was 5 am! I woke up n then I washed my face, did the morning prayer, after that I went sleep again besides my mom.. LOL~
Wat a day..:) oh n today im gonna meet some of my friends when I was in Middle School..:D soooo excited!! xD I bet they’ve changed a lot..haha~

Oh oh n this is my dorky pic.. the forgotten one..LOL~ OMGIFEELDORKY

am i???

2009-07-20T05:34:00.001-07:00

“Am I a playa?” I asked myself.. n I answered myself too, “no im not..”..
So here’s the sitch.. I can like one person for a loooooong time..but,,I can also like some persons at a time..O_O n that’s wat im feelin ryt now..D: I think im in love with several persons at a time..=_=
Sounds greedy n “gahhh”.. but wat shud I do??? I think I love them.. now Im starting to hate myself..:(
But I think this time it’s kinda make sense tho.. so remember AZ? Yeah I told u guys that I love him a lot n he made me stronger..:) but..the fact that he doesn’t feel the same way makes me think twice bout it..:| I mean,,it hurts if I keep waiting for him ryt?? It’s not like he’s going to love me later anyway..:(
So some ppls told me to move on..n that’s exactly wat im doing ryt now.. I thought this guy is just gonna be a “rebound guy”.. just a guy that I use to forget AZ.. but im wrong..D:
When I said “im gonna miss u” at the first time when we gonna end our convo,,he said “im gonna miss u all to”.. but then,,after we talked n get to know each other more, his words changed into “im gonna miss u too” n stuff..n I remember that for like 3 days he weren’t on n I was really really sad..:( I missed him a lot..n then I sent him offline msg saying I miss him.. then he went online when I wasn’t..but he replied to my offline msg..he said,” I miss u *censored cz I dun want u to know wat he call me :P*..:( I’ve been sick the last 2 days I wasn’t OL..gaaaaah I missed u..but now im okay..g’nite sweet dreams..^^”
O was like “WAAAA HE MISSED ME!!” lololol~ silly I know..:P but w/e..xD
So Im pretty sure that I love him cz I was like “OMGOMGOMG” when I realized that my friend is kinda into him..:|
Anywayyy..i made something for him..xD LOL~

fansigns compilation..:D

2009-07-20T05:30:00.001-07:00

WOOHOO~ I got so many fansigns..:D n I made the compilations of them..xD but sadly,,I lost some fansigns..:’( I forgot where did I save them..D:
Oh well,, so far I got 36+ fansigns..:) im soooo happy..:D
N here’s the compilationnnnnn~

i broke sumone's heart..
2009-07-17T05:28:00.000-07:00
i feel so bad..
i just hope he'll get over it..
im so sorry..D:

THANKS AZ..:)

2009-07-14T20:43:00.000-07:00

so umm yeah i like this guy but he doesnt feel the same way..xD
poor me..:( but oh well,,it's kinda =_=' but i feel a lot stronger than before..i know it's so hard for me to get thru all of this but i feel like i can do it..
am i gonna wait forever?haha i guess so..i never feel somethin like this before..O_O
*sigh* i wish he know..oh wait,,he does!O_O LMAO
oh well,,im stronger now so im sure im gonna be okay..:)
im not gonna be that agressive kind of girl hahaha..x)
last thing i wanna write is "ily AZ.." :)

sigh

2009-07-11T20:04:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since the last time i blogging..D:
oh well,,many things happened..
such as:
* i got a weird text msg which sounds like sumone just dump me..O_O weird thing is im not even his gf before..=_='
* my crush knew it that i have a crush on him O_O' *sigh* now i dunno wat to do..D:
* i got lots of works..but well,,i'll get a new phone so FTW!!lol
* i got a new cy bf LOLOLOL oh well,,we dun really know each other that well..== i hope he doesnt take it seriously cz i dont..:|
* i miss my hawt bro that i havent talk to for a while (oh yeshhh i mean u,JAME!:P)
* n i miss AZ..fosho..x) altho i just talk to him but err..D: *sigh* i miss himmmmm..:( ughh HARRR~!

if u saw a lot of "*sigh*" up there,,that's bcz i was really sighing..== LOL
oh well,,my mom gonna take me to the mall later..i hope she gonna buy me the phone today!!:D
i havent finish my work but,,i hope today is the DAY!!LOL :D
uhmm,,yeah im kinda hyper..D: but who cares??lol
as long as i dun annoy u guys..^__^
love ya~<3333333

RIP Frank Millena

2009-07-08T17:23:00.001-07:00

i know him since the first time he's on cyworld..i didnt approach him at that time,,i just paying attention to how he trying to fit in in that site..then i thought he's a nice guy so i decided to approach him..^^
oh well,,a lot of good memories we've been thru..he used to call me "ratu dearie" n i called him "my deer"..n i remember how much me used to write "<33333" or sumthin like that..:)
i love u my friend..the tragic story behind ur death really pissed me off..but i hope u r in a better place right now..
all the member of Disease Family n FRADRINACHI Family might lose u very much..also all the member of cyworld..u will always be in our heart,dear..we love u..
Rest In Peace..<3

my dad is half ROCKS & half SUX!!

2009-07-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

Seriously, idk wat’s on his mind..
He’s an extreme person! Oh yeah.. EXTREME! If he’s in the good mood, he’s very very nice to EVERYONE..
But if he’s not in a good mood, blehh! Never expect sumthin nice from him except u r NOT the member of the family.. oh well, im tired whenever there’s a scene when my parents become so dramatic to overcome problems.. everytime I saw it, I always wanna scream “HEY! U GUYS R ADULT! SOLVE IT WISELY PLEASE!!” cz well, me myself always try to find the best way whenever I have probs.. oh well, sumtimes I also act like an immature person. But im NOT an adult so it’s normal..=_=’
The weirdest thing that I saw on my dad is that these days, he often talk on the phone.. idk who it is.. I was thinkin to stalk him but.. idk.. I feel it’s not right.. but it’s kinda annoying bcz he’s so different when he’s on the phone with “whoever it is”.. when he talks, it’s the same as when he talks to me (he mostly talk to me in a very good way, cz im his favorite :D).. but when he answer my mom’s call, he’s not like that.. the intonation is kinda different somehow..D:
I smell something fishy here, but Im not gonna do anything right now.. I’ll wait n c wat’s gonna happen next.. but I hope it’s not like the old times.. when I was only 8 years old,, when there r a lot of tears came from so many eyes..
I love u daddy, mommy.. I just hope u guys can act more mature remember how old u r..D:
N daddy, please dun let out all ur anger here, let it out when u play tennis instead! LOL
I <3 u.. u guys r everythin to me..:)

2009-07-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

For so many days I feel like im all alone in this crowded world.. y? well im not sure myself.. maybe cz I dun think there’s sumone who really really understand me.. there r people that r very nice to me.. they wanna hear all my probs, always there if I want them.. but there’s a question in my head.. do they really know me? The real me? If they know, they might leave me alone.. haha..
Oh well,, this song from Jacko really cheers me up..^^ i was thinkin to sing this song n record it.. but oh well,, let’s just c..:)
N remember,, U R NOT ALONE, IM HERE WITH U..^^

thank you..^^

2009-07-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

<3333

THE BIGGEST FANSIGN I EVER GOT

2009-07-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

WOOT~
i know! it's HUGE xD
my friend Adri Zulhariz made it for me..xD <33

kkkk~ he's a really good friend..xD
<3

take care adri~ LOL

IM SO CONFUSED

2009-07-05T07:06:00.000-07:00

So I like this guy (I’ll call him as A in this blog) since may ROFL.. but sumone told me that I like other guy (I’ll call him B)..
Im confused..D:
Well,, idk y but I get along pretty well with B much faster than I get along with A..:(
Is that a sign?LMAO :P
So yeah now I confused..=_=
Damn daichi u just made me really really thinkin bout my feelin ROFL..
Oh well,, shud I go for A? or B? xD
Lemme tell u sumthin.. I know A better.. but B.. err,, idk I think it’s REALLY FUN to be with him..O_O
Aishhh!! Wat’s wrong with me??D:
I cant be like this ugh~
I better make up my mind ASAP before I hurt myself..:|

IM A GRANDMA!!

2009-07-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

Okay that’s kinda shocking.. i know..xD
But I AM a grandma..xD n my grandson is Daichi..:)
My hubbies r Adri n Franko LMAO..x)
So err yeah.. that’s the family tree on The FraDriNaChi Family..:D

aww im so lucky to be around cuties like them..<33
i love u guys LMAO

boredom rulesss LOL

2009-07-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

so yeah..D:
boredommm+randomness=webcam piccies (i havent post all of them tho..D:) LOL
<3333333

boredommmm

2009-07-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHA so yeah! i LURVE u!xD
umm yeah..i made it after i made a fansign for Adri..<3 LOL
umm,,it's actually like this

but then i used my jacket to cover the rest of the fansign so there's only the heart left..xD
umm n yeah,i hope adri gonna love the fansign i made for his bday tomorrow..:)
cz i made 2 version of it! in 3 pics! LOL xD <33
he's a very nice guy~ i hope i can get along with him..x)
^__________________^ <333

ME!

2009-07-04T01:59:00.000-07:00

oh yeah im so lateeeee D:
i shud have post this thingy at the beginning..LOL
but yeah..
this ugly girl is me:

so errr..where shud i start?O_O
my full name is Ratna Astuti Nugrahaeni (i bet not much of u can pronounce it right..D:).. ppl call me Nana..
umm well,, i was born 16 years ago in Lexington, Kentucky, USA..
n here's baby me..x)

aisshh!! i shud know that it's embarrassing to post my baby pic here..D:
but errr,,who care?O_O
LOL
umm,,wat's next?
oh yeah.. i get along with ppl pretty well.. ugh, well at least that's wat i think..xD
i have lots of besties..<3 n im so happy that i have them..:D
oh oh! i just remember that i really really hate ppl that dont understand me..D:
this question kinda passed thru my mind like several times,"y dont they get it??"
oh yeah.. im always confused if i expressed my feelings so clearly but then ppl dun get it if there's sumthin wrong with me that caused by them..D:
(mmkay,,i hardly understand my prev sentence but blehh w/e LOL)

oh n right now i currently crushing on sumone..x)
i wanna post his pic here but.. nah..LOL
he knows that i love him..
n that's enough :D
okiesss..that's for the intro..xD
cya on my next post! <33

Im gonna miss him like crazy..D:

2009-07-04T00:39:00.000-07:00

He gonna go on a trip for a week.. good for him but not for me.. LOL D:
Im gonna miss him a lot.. it’ll be hard for me to get thru all of this w/o sharing it with him..:(
Well, im gonna text him often.. I know it’s expensive but doesn’t really matter for me since he text me back..:) I love u..
Be safe on ur trip.. n have fun.. <3 ^^
I hope time goes fast til next week n goes slowly when we talk again..x)
Lovenmissyewmuch..<3

IMPORTANT PPL (besides family) PART 1

2009-07-03T19:14:00.000-07:00

so yeah..i just wanna show the world some ppl that MADE CHANGES in me..
err sorry if u r not there, maybe that's bcz u havent know me that well, or we havent talk as much as those ppl below to me..:)
* Jame my "hawt" bro x) <33

* Raysa indonesian bestieeeee <33

* April bestieeee <3

* Jonathan bestieeee <3

* Kevin bestieeee <3

* Brenda mommy LOL jk..she can be anythin for me..:) <333

* Peter i lurve him D:

ooVoo

2009-07-02T20:00:00.001-07:00

so err YEAH!!!
i was OOVOOing with mah lovely buddies..:D
n those r the picciess..LOL
ENJOY! hahaha ^^v <333333

i hate this guy

2009-07-02T18:31:00.000-07:00

Chong Yang..
it's his name..
I HATE HIM!!!
:(
he's a super weird guy..D:
n i become weird if i got near him..(well err i mean when i talk to him,cz we r too far away LOL)
he can makes me feel like im the happiest girl in the world..
but he also can makes me feel im having the worst day ever..D:
i used to like him,LOL
but not anymore..
not until i met "blablabla" ROFL
so err yeah..
I DUN MIND IF U REMOVED ME FROM UR FRIENDLIST!!!
oh wait,u already did..
so IM GONNA SAY THANKS!!!
ugh!!
i hate yewww very very muchhhh..:(

saranghae..<3

2009-07-02T06:22:00.000-07:00

I love him..
Yeah I do love him..
Ftw this is so stupid! I haven’t meet him in real, so how come im so madly in love with him??
O_O
I know this is silly, this is stupid, n this is torturing me..D:
I cant live like this. I shud move on. But then I questioned myself, “Can I forget him??”
N I got “No” as the answer.. NO! I cant forget him.. NO! I cant move on.. n also NO! I cant stay loving him..:(
I told others that I love this situation im in ryt now.. but that’s A BIG LIE! I cant live like this! It doesn’t mean I have to be with him, cz I know I CANT be with him.. HA HA HA I laugh at myself so many times everytime I imagine how happy it is if I can be with him.. well at least talk to him in person..:|
I wanna blame him for my feelin.. I wanna blame him cz he was “there” at the time I went back to “that place”.. I wanna blame him for every sweet thing he told me.. I wanna blame him for the time he spent with me.. n I wanna blame him for those words that came from him n really touch my heart.. he said it’s real.. I believe him.. n it makes everythin get harder.. D:
I always wanna ask u this, “Do u know that I love u?” I haven’t ask u yet, but im pretty sure im gonna get a “Yes” as the answer.. cz the way I behave all this time to u seems pretty obvious to make u know that I love u.. ahhh.. I shud stop this feeling ASAP.. or im just gonna trapped in this LOVEHOLE longer..x(
After writing all of this, I feel better.. a lot better..:)
N I think I wont forget u or erase u from my mind.. I’ll keep u in two place, my heart n my brain..x)
Eww it sounds cheesy..D: but well that’s the truth..:)
Did I love u? Yes I did..
Do I love u? Yes I do..
Am I gonna keep loving u? Sure, with all my heart..:)

Im serious okay, this posting is truly wat’s in my heart.. Im not gonna tell u who’s the “unlucky” guy is, well I dun have to cz some of u might already know it.. but really guys, if u think I was writing a trash above there, it’s so WRONG.. cz I really mean it, every single word..

*hugs from me to all of u who read this*

PATRICE FAMILY..:D

2009-07-02T03:19:00.000-07:00

hahaha yeah..xD
patrice is my twin in cyworld..n we have family there..
n one of our family member made this:

kkkk~ i love u guys..~

ME & JEALOUSY

2009-07-02T03:09:00.001-07:00

Jealousy.. HA! Yeah.. im so into that word.. LOL
Cz I get jealous easily n sumtimes it annoys me.. D:
Idk y, but if Im being treated differently (not better than other) I’ll feel very very jealous.. LOL
Sumtimes I don’t show it to ppl, but sumtimes I can be very very annoying n start “spamming” LOL
Yeah.. u read it right.. “SPAMMING”! HA! So if u noticed im doing spam stuff, means im feeling jealous at that time..:D
I know it’s so childish,, but who cares?? LOL this is me, n if u dun like it, just block me or even remove me from ur friendlist..x)
I always try to be nice to ppl.. well I LIKE ALL MY FRIENDS, NO EXCEPTION.. that’s TRUE!
I was gonna say I love all my friends but to think of it, im just gonna say “LOVE” to certain ppl..:)
At this time I got some close friends n I feel accepted.. I hope im not gonna feel jealous easily again..x)
Ahh yeah.. I HOPE! :D <3333

MY VOICE BACK!!!

2009-07-02T03:03:00.000-07:00

YAY! i know it's a good thing ryt??xD
now i can dance n sing again~~~
JULIETTE~~~~ (8)
ROFL so random..D:
ohh btw i think i shud cancel my "weekend plan" ---> it's a code for err,,u know..;)
y??well bcz i think i need to get FULLY RECOVERED cz im getting sick pretty easy..D:
DARN!! i've been waiting for "that day" to come,,but im the one who shud cancel it..D:
aww geez..:'(
im sorry "..."
i cant go~~~ huhuhu
im so sorry..:(

THE DISEASE FAMILY D:

2009-07-01T18:42:00.000-07:00

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so errr..yeah..u read the title right..
THE DISEASE FAMILY O_O
the members r Me,Naia,Franko,n Daichi LOL
so yeah..
the history of the family:
* franko met daichi then they become TB (twin bro)
* naia, dai, franko, n i made a conference.. then they called each other "TB" (sounds like a disease ryt?LOL)
* then after that those guys came up with "SARS n AIDS" (ftw! ROFL)
* naia pick SARS so AIDS is the only thing left for me D: (OMG..=__=)
* so yeah..after that sumtimes we called each other with those disease thingy..xD !!! hahaha..
* oh yeah there's a new member..Kiki..we call her Bird Flu :D

kinda weird,,but that's how we roll,ppl!! xD yeehawww! LMAO

here here i'll put the pic..:D
Daichi n Franko (the TB.. :P)

Naia the SARS

Nana the AIDS (Me D:)

Kiki the Bird Flu

DISEASE FAMILY I LOVE U FOREVER~ LMAOOOO
<3333333333333333333333333

I HAVE A SYUPAH COOL JAP BRO! <333

2009-07-01T18:06:00.000-07:00

okay so i knew him from us.cyworld.com ..
he's a pretty popular boy!! LOL
he's handsome,cute,tall,sweet,nice,funny,etc..
actually he's also 16 like me,,but he's 10 days OLDER!!! ftw LOL
i always wanted to have more younger bro,,but now he makes me having more older bro..D:
but it's all good,,since he's a syupah cool bro! xD
he care for me a lot (o really?O_O LOL)
he gonna kick bad guy's ass if they messed up with me (YAY!)
im so happy that i have him as my bro ROFL ROFL
so yeah..im gonna put his pic here..:D
kkkkk~ daichi!!! i love yewww bro <33333

another cute pic..xD

DAICHI IS THE SYUPAH COOL JAP BRO EVER!! XD <333333333

I LOST MY DAMN VOICE!

2009-07-01T17:52:00.001-07:00

hell yeah..i lost my voice..not all of it actually..but i can barely talk!!! sh!t D:
i drank "warm" thingy n ate soup etc..but still D:
AISHHHH!
ahh i just hope i get my voice back really soon..-__-

conference on msn..x(

2009-07-01T07:21:00.000-07:00

so yeah..
here i am!
sitting in front of my computer with:
*a bowl of corn flakes
*a large glass of milk
x)

well that's my life..:D
almost everyday i have a conference in MSN with my friends..well,sumtimes it's SO SLOW.but sumtimes it can be SO CROWDED O_O
i actually always try to keep up with those ppl..
but lately i didnt..
idk y but i dun feeling "RIGHT" to be there..
maybe i feel unwanted?LMAO hahaha..
nah..maybe cz i dun like the topic..D:
yeah..that's the right one..

oh well,anyway today's conference kinda FUN in te beginning..i got ppls that i love there..n they didnt ignore me so i was kinda have so much fun..<333
but after several ppls left,i felt abandoned..D:
HA! LMAO well it's true..so yeah i decided to left that conference..x(
blehh w/e..haha..

oh n i still miss pv..:( ugh..i wanna text him over n over again but im afraid it's gonna disturb him n he will think that im annoying..D:
ugh..

i miss him

2009-06-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

oh yeah..he said he not gonna be on til the next couple days..
he got problem with his internet..:(
it makes me super super super SAD :'( well yeah i admit it i miss him a lot..n cant talk to him for a while gonna makes me CRAZY..i cant live like this,i know..but..blah! i like him! n if i cant talk to him,it feels awful..:'(
ugh..
actually we can text each other..but it's kinda slow n expensive..D:
hwaaaa i wanna talk to him! T_______T
i miss yew PV! i miss yew i miss yew i miss yew!!! D:
i feel so empty..D:
HAAAAA..D:
well,,get back soon~
imissyewnloveyewmuch~
<333333

another confession

2009-06-30T06:13:00.000-07:00

So..ini postingan pertama yg pake bhs indo..hmm..gw pengen curhat ttg org yg gw gak suka..

Well,gw kenal ni cwe dari dunia maya..orgnya baik n fun sih,tp gtw knp gw gak suka aja..mungkin cz kami beda tipe kali yah..jadi ya gitu deh..

Dy pernah buat gw sebel bgt ma dy mpeg w bnr2 g tahan..tp gw udah maafin dy soal itu..udah gak gw pikirin lagi..tp tiap kali ngobrol ma dy,mood gw jadi ilang..=_=

Kl lg conference n ada dy,gw jd pengen out aja gt..gw gak mw ngeliatin perasaan gw ni ma dy,,cz dy baik ma gw blakangan ni..(mungkin cz dy ngerasa bersalah atas apa yg udah dy lakuin ma gw) but well,gw bakal nyoba utk survive n sebisa mungkin ttp ramah sama dy..

Oia,,gw jg lg BT bgt ma ni org..dy udah janji mw ngomong ama gw,eh trus gw tungguin tp g dtg2! Gw sebel bgt..n sedih jg..T_T mana enggak,dy tuh g pernah gini sebelumnya..plus lagi,dy tu cwo yg gw taksir..D: Gw kangen berat ma dy..T_T huhuhu..

Oh iya ni hari gw ngerasa illfeel..D: gw dapet SMS internasional dr orang yg g diinginkan,plus diajak chat ma org paling aneh sedunia! O_O tp gw decline sih permintaannya..(dy ngajak chat di cy)

Gw takut aja ngobrol ma dy,cz dy keliatannya pedo..D:

Umm,,this one shud I write in English..:D

I miss some ppl that I havent talk to in a while..:(

Sion – my daddy! xD LOL haaa I miss talkin to yew..T_T n I got some mean ppl talkin to me.. n no one protect me here..huhuhu T_T

Lee – otoochan :D huhuhu I miss u like crazyyy! I miss yer randomness..O_O

Raysa – (actually I talk to u a lot xD) but I miss u bestie..:D I wanna talk to u bout how mad I am with “him”..D:

Peter – HUH! Im mad at u dude.. u told me we can chat but u were not online! HA! Im missed u a lot..T_T

Jun – HA! U ignored me several times..T_T huhuhu n I miss yew..xD lol

Well yeah..D: oh n CJ ty for caring for me a lot..ty for realizing that im not okay..x) <333

a confession :(

2009-06-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

Okay..so yesterday was kinda really really weird n confusing day for me..i think I got pranked again..== it was really really sux.. i was like “UH?y it shud be me?” *sigh* well,, here’s wat happened// my friend told me that “this guy” has a crush on me. I was like “nah no way”. Then I asked that guy n he said “nahh”. But then the girl tried her best to convinced me. But ugh,, the thing she told me is just too good to be true! Well,, it’s not like I have a feelin to this guy, but I ever told by sumone that he has a gf, so yeah.. n then this guy told me that my friend is just throwing a prank at me again n he asked me to just act like I dunno anythin.. well I did believe him so I did wat he asked me to.. so when I was having a conference with those guys, I was acting like I dunno anything.. but the weird thing is, at the end of the conference, no one told me that it was just a prank! But well,, it must be a prank..==
I was thinking to stop doing internet stuff.. not just bcz of wat happened yesterday, but I had so many bad things happened to me when im in my “unreal” world.. my heart hurt a lot.. i wonder y, cz I don’t think I did bad things.. well okay I ever hurt some ppl but I didn’t mean it.. plus, ppl that hurt me r ppl that I always being nice to.. x( do I look that innocent?? do they feel happy after make me look fool?? Im tired n sick with all of this.. I have feelin, im not a mannequin or doll! Im a HUMAN! Will u guys stop doing it to me??
There r some advantages n also disadvantages for me leaving my internet life. Well I guess u know that I have so many besties.. n they care for me a lot.. but I really cant stand it anymore.. especially if sumone messed with my feeling.. so yeah, im gonna think really hard n also discuss it with my friends first before I make a decision.. cz this one is gonna be a big one..
Last but not least, I still wanna thanks all my internet friends.. although some of u just give me pain, but im still very happy to meet u guys.. tccic~ <3333

my cy family..

2009-06-25T18:04:00.000-07:00

so yeah..i joined this site since dec 2008..cyworld..place where bored ppl gathered haha..xD
so umm,,i dun really have many friends at that time..i was really shy..>///< i dun even know how to make a thread..haha silly me..=(
but after that i kinda talk to ppl there n i found out that they r nice..=)
n at that time i met this guy named Hwan Jung..he is my first "oppa" ahha..he is very nice to me..we chatted almost everyday,til one day he got very busy with his work..T__T
then there's this guy named Kevin..he's Chinese n also 16 yo like me..=D
he's so funny..xD everytime i feel sad,i just have to talk to him to make me feel better..^^ n im still talkin to him now..x)
after that i met sooooo many cool ppl like Sooyeon (my korean bestie), Gaew (my thai bestie), Jame (my "hot" thai bro), Kyoshu (a jerk haha), Yaro (a nice pervert xD), Chong (my 1st cy bf <3), Park Shin (my lovely bestie), April n Jonathan (my bestie that also a lovely couple <33), Kyoung Ho (my errr.."x" oppa?LOL), Raysa (my caring bestie <333), Minyo (my loveable girl friend haha), Art (a very nice n cuteeee guy xD), Don (a nice n caring guy), Kelly (my <333 ROFL), Janzu (my girl friend haha <333), Eric (my cy buddy), Timmie (a syupah dupah CUTEEEE guy <3333333).. they r my friends in cy..xD the "OLDIES" hahaha

then around march i was "hiatus" from cy LOL..n i went back there on may..
i met so many newbies..O_O
Peter (a weird n nice guy,also my crush?O_O LOL), Xyhae (my hunneyh bunneyh..<3), Patriceee (my twinniee <3), Franko (my lovely deer <3), CJ (my luffff <3), rondy (my hun haha), Ily (my other twin..xD), Naia (the hottie haha), Lily (a very nice n caring friend..:D), Sion (my syupah handsome n lovely daddy xD), Aaron (my cutie next door xD), Jun (my korean-chinese thatlivesinindonesia buddy xP), Nabila (my lovely F4 buddy :D), Tian (my filipino buddy..xD), Lex (another filipino buddy xD), Lee (my otoochannn <3), Tikkaaa (my girl! haha), *okay now im feelin lost LOL feels like im missing sumone..O_O*

so yeah,,now i have like 321 friends..:) im not really talkin to all of them tho..D:
ahhahh..><
hmm,,well..so i have many besties..O_O some "oppa"s..2 twinnies..2 daddies O_O..some girl friends..n blahblahblah xD
<333333 u all..^^

internet life

2009-06-25T15:27:00.000-07:00

internet crush -- okay this might sound crazy n stupid.n i met some ppl who r into this thing.well,,me too actually..>< i have a crush with this "unreal" guy LOL..but im not taking it seriously..:)
so i've been thinkin n it's kinda crazy that u can fall in love with ppl that u havent c in real life..
i mean,cmon!ppl in the internet can be watever they want,they can act nice altho they r not,they can use others pic (faker) to attract ppl to talk to them,n other stuff..
well,,not every ppl r like that,,but who knows??O_O
i thank God that i have so many "unreal but real" friends..:) it's right that i dunno them in real life,but i do know that they r nice to me (n i hope that's they way they r..).
to be honest i can talk to my internet friends bout almost anything..yeah,ANYTHING!! xD
stuff that i cant say to my family or my close friends,i can say it to them..
n so far,i feel that they can accept me just the way i am..i dun have to change anythin in me..i can be "ME" x)
cz sumtimes im kinda playing a role in real life..i shud do stuff that i dun want to..i shud act nice altho it's toward ppl that i dun like..==
i dun have to be like that in my internet life..
i can do watever i want,i dun have to pretend that im nice,n i can say everythin on my mind..
n a great thing is that i have so many ppl that care for me..altho we havent met,they really really nice n i can feel that they r sincere..x)
i wanna thanks my bestie one by one..:)
Raysa-thanks for helping me thru all lovelifethingy that i have..:) it's good to have u cz i can talk to u bout anythin n i dun have to use english..xD
April-i havent know u that much but im so grateful that i met u..u r very nice n caring girl..we've shared story together n i'll keep it in mind forever..:)
Jonathan-my notasian bestie..haha..ty for being there for me whenever i need a friend..ty for cheering me up n noticing whenever i have a probs..:D
i love u guys a lot..<3333333

i'll make another blog for next "ty" thingy..:)

they got me..==

2009-06-25T01:24:00.000-07:00

well,,i have bunch of internet friends..they r very nice..xD lol..i love them so much..
n one day,exactly on june 25th (2 days after my bday) sumthin shocking happened..there's this guy,named Aaron..he's SOOOO CUTE haha..but then in our conference,,others told me that he is a fake..== they said so many harsh words to aaron..><
so yeah after that i decided to blocked Aaron from my MSN n then i asked Sion not to talk to him..then i invited some ppl to join our convo..but then,,sumone invited Aaron n said that he's is not fake..it was a prank..== i was really really mad but also happy cz they did that for my bday haha..xD
ty Naia "a hot girl",Sion "my lovely n nice cy friend",Aaron "a cutie next door",n Jun "my korean friend that lives in indo"..i love u guys..<3333333

i love him..

2009-06-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

so i knew this guy n i like his personality..i mean,,err..yeah he's kinda different..>< i think he's kinda shy, not kinda romantic haha..lol but i like it cz it feels so special if i hear him saying IMY or ILY.. nah dun think that he loves me as a lover..he loves me as his close friend..
*sigh*
but it doesnt really matter for me..cz when he say those 3 words (either IMY or ILY),,i feel like im flying sooooo high..>///<>__<
oh n i know that he has a crush..he likes her a lot n it has been for long time ago..i guess i'll never can get his heart..ahha..=(
well,,some ppl said he might love me too not just as a close friend,but im not sure..well the only thing that im sure is that i love him..a lot..n i just want him to get wat's best for him..
i let him know that i have a crush on him..but it doesnt mean that i want him to be with me..cz the situation right now already brings happiness to me..=)
i wanna thanks him a million time..nah..it wont be enough..but yeah,,i really appreciate it that he loves me as his close friend..xD that's enough for me..
i know that there's no space left for me in his heart..cz he has "her"..but im okay..i believe i can survive..=) cz im a strong girl..^__^

my first time..

2009-06-24T23:18:00.000-07:00

well,,yeah it's my first time with blogging thingy.. i was doing this site thingy for my class n im not thinkin of blogging at all.. but i saw lots of my friends doing it n seems they have so much fun..O_O so yeah..i decided to give it a try..:D
i dun really know wat to write here,,but im planning to make it like my diary..^^ my english is not that good tho so im sorry if there's sumthin that u cant understand..
well,,mmkay im gonna start my diary for today..:D